Full force

Wow. Sometimes things still hit me, like, "I actually graduated from college!" I still dream about forgetting about a big test or going to class with no shoes on. Or, "I'm married!" or "I'm someone's mother!" Well, my new one is "I can't believe I actually had a miscarriage."
Mother's Day marked the worst of it, with the next day (May 12) being THE DAY the pregnancy was officially over. So, here it is exactly a month later and I've been spotting a little bit for about a week now. Not like I spotted in past cycles, definitely still "different." Streaky, bloody, red. I keep thinking I'll start my period at any given moment but so far, just spotting.
So it'll be interesting to see how this cycle pans out. "My first cycle after my miscarriage." See? I still can't really believe it.
My hubby and I haven't exactly been "careful," so that's an additional worry. It seemed like I was fertile maybe two weeks back but I'm not charting so I don't know if I ovulated. If the bleedin continues and stays this light, I'd guess an annovulatory cycle, which wouldn't be surprising. I can understand why it's recommended to wait three cycles--my body is definitely taking its time getting back to normal. But I was never that normal to begin with, so it works!!
As always, time will tell. I really should start charting again so I know what's going on. Good thing I printed extras last time.