hoo-eee!!

Wow, I seemed super-duper-fertile yesterday. Like, needed a mini pad fertile. I had shooting pains in my pelvis, which was odd, and a dull ache on my right side, like ovulatory pain.
THEN, there was a teensy bit of blood once when I went to the bathroom. That's a sign of the hormones shift associated with ovulation--the estrogen dropping before the progesterone takes over. I hope so, at least. Our "timing" should've been just right, although unless I've totally dried up, we'll try again tonight, just in case.
Oh, last night I woke up burning hot, too, which could also be a clue that I ovluated.
Yes, I need to start charting again. Sigh....
**ADDED LATER**
I do seem dry today! Weird!! I bet I ovulated yesterday!!
OR...my estrogren tried to peak and release an egg but didn't quite make it. So either we did well or we'll get another chance--either way, it's good!!
**ADDED EVEN LATER**
I did end up with some white, sticky fluid--definitely not dry. Maybe I didn't ovulate yet.

Try, try again

Well, yesterday was our first time "trying" since the miscarriage. We're only about 20 days into this cycle, which is fairly early for me to ovulate, but maybe I'm functioning more normally now. I certainly seemed fertile, but that's been known to last for a week or more. I figure we'll try the every-other-day technique until the weekend, when I'll be gone. We've got to at least give God a fighting chance!!
I sent out a plea to pray today, too, for health and protection, even this early in the game. It's really more important now than ever. Those early weeks are so, so fragile. So...we'll see, as always, how it goes.

Cycle starting July 30

So I'm aiming to lose 15 lbs.
Maybe before getting pregnant...maybe not. If the goal gets interrupted, that's fine, but if I don't get pregnant, I'll push ahead and shoot for the 155lb. mark. I've already dropped 2-3 just within the week or so since I started cutting back and I feel better already, too. A LOT less fast food, junk food and sugar. No wonder I feel better!!

In other news, this is looking like a fertile cycle. I'm a little over a week past my period ending--12 days into this cycle, total--and the fluid is on the rise!! Yesterday, it hit me in the leg again, but it was the beige, stringy kind--not truly fertile. But still. Maybe my hormones are normalizing.
So we'll take it a day at a time. I'm thinking we'll do the "not trying, not preventing" tactic this cycle. I've been known to plan for that, then know I'm fertile and TRY anyway. It'd hard not to, with as well as I know my body.

I like to keep track of this, too:

Conceive in Aug...due in May
Conceive in Sept.....due in June
Conceive in Oct...due in July...

and so on. Approximately.

With Monkey, I got pregnant on or very near to Feb. 27 and gave birth Nov. 26. Almost 9 months to the day from conception to birth.

Best-case scenario and IF we got pregnant this cycle, I doubt I'd know I was pregnant before September, but I probably would conceive in August. May would be nice!! A summer due date...yikes. But after a miscarriage, you know I'll never be picky again!!

Recommendation

"There really isn’t a magic number when it comes to how long to wait, but most doctors and midwives suggest waiting at least two or three menstrual cycles after a miscarriage to allow the uterus and endometrial lining to become healthy again."

Well. Mine isn't back to normal yet, I'm afraid. Lots and lots of clotting. I think I'm still purging. I'm not done yet. Not healthy enough. Not getting pregnant this cycle.

Aunt Flo #2

Yup, she arrived in town Wednesday. Full force, mind you. Lovely. That means this cycle was about 7 weeks long. Yeesh.

I'm having a lot more clots than usual, still. Pre-pregancy, I hardly ever had those. I wonder if my body, then, is still recovering from the miscarriage.
My hubby thinks we can try this cycle, cuz it's cycle #3, post-miscarriage. I'm telling him, "No, I think they meant COMPLETE three cycles first." Like, three periods. This is #2. Not start trying again IN cycle #3.

I dunno, now I need to research it more. I have cut down on the junk food and have been trying to eat more healthily. I have plans to Gazelle more often, too, possibly during "What Not To Wear." I need to do better about taking my vitamins, though.
So...we'll see. I suppose there is a chance we could be "trying" again in a few weeks, or it may be another 6-plus weeks away. Or longer!!

And still I have hesitations. There are moments when I can picture us with another child, being a family of four, with Monkey as an older brother. I do want more children, at least in theory!

And then there's the reality of nursing a newborn again, dealing with two car seats and dragging two kids to the grocery store and where everyone would sleep and the expense, not to mention being pregnant and giving birth again...and I go, "I'm not ready." I'm still a little scared. Sex still hurts from Monkey's birth, and that was over 2.5 years ago!! Labor could be awful!! Can I even handle two kids????

So. I don't feel ready. Hubby is!! We're not getting any younger. We're looking at kids well over 3 years apart. Life keeps marching on. Everyone else is handling two and two-plus kids just fine, or so it seems.
Ultimately, it's in the Lord's hands.
We shall see.